Champagne Bubblee Column: When the hashtag has gone

Champagne Bubblee, aka Mr Milise, shares excerpts from a poem he wrote that considers how people suffering with mental health issues might feel following World Mental Health Day.

Well I suppose that was nice wasn’t it?

Everybody stopped and thought about you for a day.

For a moment there you felt like people could relate and you’re reading posts on their page like “It’s OK not to be OK”.

But It’s easy for them to say, ‘cos now they’ve all gone away.

And you’re the only one that has to stay.

And I can sense that you’re frightened.

Your chest has just tightened, and your senses are heightened.

But Hold On! Lamb of GOD with the strength of a Lion, life goes on.

Tell yourself that YOU matter. Let yourself know that YOU’RE number one.

And when that thought pattern has begun. You start to undo what those voices have done!

‘Cos they’ve been getting worse for years and I hear that.

Sat behind the shower curtain for hours and wiping tears back.

But now I’m certain if you’re empowered.

All your demons will fear that, you’ve been dreaming you’d see that.

From the day they tormented you.

From the first day you withdrew and your bestie, lost a friend in you.

Read between these lines.

Know that we all pretend to be fine. When we’re posting online.

Yes, your reflection has imperfections like mine.

And yes, I feel like throwing the towel in sometimes.

When you put on that brave face and pretend it’s alright.

When you lay in bed all day and when you can’t sleep at night.

Holding your pillow tight!

Muddled and stressed, upset for no reason in puddles of sweat.

As a child when you were sad, did Mum cuddle you then?

Have you lost her now? Or have you flown the nest?

Did relations break down or are you seeing her less?

‘Cos when it hurts us it feels like we all need to be nurtured.

Instead you’re wondering alone and feeling misunderstood.

So, come on… Come out from the woods.

Build a network around you.

There’s support out there, you’ll be glad that you found too.

Give them a piece of your mind.

‘Cos you need peace of mind.

Don’t look back at the demons that you’re leaving behind.

And people BE KIND, show support when there’s flashbacks.

Show them that to you, they mean more than a hashtag.

‘Cos mostly society stigmatises anxiety.

But if you can hear me. I PROMISE you won’t suffer quietly.

Quinton teaches poetry and creative writing online. Follow Quinton on Instagram @champagne_bubbler and @whoismrmilise. Follow Mr Milise on Spotify. Email him on kcvsinfo@gmail.com.

This feature was published in the November 2020 issue of Celebrate:MK lifestyle magazine. Read the full magazine above or by clicking on this link.

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